November 6, 2009 • 10:48 pm 0
The clouds do not seem to dissappear. They get thicker instead. There are so many things flashing through my mind, yet I don’t seem to be doing anything. And worst, some of it is not even in my control. As I sit and stare into the ceiling each night, I feel so helpless and so scared. I just want to fall asleep, but I simply can’t.
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November 5, 2009 • 1:54 pm 0
I realised I am a bit outdated. In Malaysia, we don’t play boardgames. We don’t even play games in a gathering. It’s all about food and chats 
Just using our mouth to its fullest capabilities 
Anyway, last night we went over to a friend’s place for coffee and tea which ended up as ovaltine and milo (yes..we miss our childhood sometimes -__-) At first, we were playing with hermit crabs (those soft shell crabs that ‘lives’ in abandoned seashells to protect themselves, and they move around with the seashells). Then we got bored, so we decided to play boardgames and she took down her monopoly set. And that’s when I was amazed …. ( before you continue reading you should know that I am very outdated in these things, and hence my ‘exarggerated amazement’)
Her monopoly doesn’t have notes. Instead each player has an ‘atm card’. and there’s this machine that will add money and deduct money from the card. How awesome is that?!! Gone is the day where we need to count our cash in hand. Bet Jen will love it because she needs not to count anymore . And… it is also environmental friendlier or rather tree friendlier. (The use of plastics is not very biodegradable if you think about it). It was a fun game. and faster too. With the new high tech stuffs, I still win hahah.. Nah.. I am just lucky not to land on some hotels.
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November 1, 2009 • 11:38 pm 0
Today was different. A grumpy morning for not getting the assistance I wanted. The Kwinana freeway. Picnic outlooking the Indian Ocean. Drive around the marina. Imaginations gone wild of luxuries and wealths. Snapping away under the sun. America’s Cup. Evolution of sailing boats. A lecture on the ropes and sails for a 34 foot yatch. Sudden random crave for chilli mussels. Try my hands at fishing. Coastline route. Sharing some love. First time scalling fish. Clean, marinated, grilled and baked the fish. Only to discover that the fish were full of bones. Numb3rs. White wine. Facebook. Wanted to blog more. Wanted to post photos. Tired. So some other days I guess. Anyway, 6th month. Happy
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October 24, 2009 • 11:33 pm 0
It’s almost 12. I hear the ikea clock ticking. I sit here and look across the table. Steve is reading the newspaper. Occasionally, he shows my some sale advertisements on some gagdets. I hear the aquarium water running. New laundrys on the sofa. It’s quiet. I like it here. I can hear my own thoughts for once. Lots of thoughts are rushing through my mind. I am worried. I am a worry wart.
I am worried although I have finished my thesis. I am afraid that I am relaxing too much when others are still working.
I am worried about job hunting too. What should I do next year? Will I get a job? Will I ever get enough money? When will I be able to afford a comfortable place to stay? The bleak future is scary.
I am worried about going home. What if I have an interview during the period when I am going home? What if…?
I am worried about being alone during Chinese New Year.
I am worried about so many things in life, sometimes I wonder how I fall asleep at night.
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October 20, 2009 • 6:28 pm 0
There’s a sense of achievements as I write the acknowledgement for my thesis. And I thought, I should post it up here.
“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.”
-The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost-For all the continuous support, advice and encouragements throughout this journey, I am grateful to everyone who has assisted me in this thesis, and without whom, it would not have been completed.
To my supervisors, Professor Philip Brown and Professor Ann Tarca, for your patience, guidance and expertise. It has been a tremendous privilege and honour to be supervised by both of you.
To mum and dad, Kyle and Vincent for your love and strong support, and all the long distance phone calls and internet chats from more than 4000kms away.
To Steve, for believing in me and being on call 24 hours whenever I needed you.
To my housemates, Meiying and Deborah for handling the affairs for the house during this period.
To Liyin and other fellow Honours comrades for the countdowns, long hours and late nights in the computer lab.
I wished I could write more in this thesis and acknowledge every single one that had helped me. Unfortunately, I am limited to the space that I could use. But, you’re not forgotten A big sincere thank you from me.
Not many people understood how tough this year was. Not many people really knew the actual workload of it. Not many people truly know the emotional toll this journey took.
The journey is not quite ending yet. There’s still this last thing I had to do like printing, binding and submit but I am happy today. I am really happy. For something that I thought was unachieveable, it is just a few steps away now. I am proud for sticking through this.
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October 19, 2009 • 9:26 am 0
and i find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad,
the dreams in which i’m dying are the best i’ve ever had,
i find it hard to tell you,i find it hard to take,
when people run in circles its a very very,
mad world, mad world
-Mad World by Gary Jules
I can’t get this song out of my head. I love this song. It’s truly a mad world today. I see people dressed up in shirts and ties. I see same cars moving in the same route. I see cards clocking in. I hear the keyboard. and the phone rings. It’s all so routine. It’s Monday. Monday blues. And I’m trying to imagine myself joining the same mad world. *shivers*
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October 17, 2009 • 12:15 pm 0
Time flies last week and this week. Within two weeks, I have almost completed my dissertation. I am writing up the very last chapter. Soon, I am gonna tidy up some formatting and proof reading some language. Soon, I am gonna write the acknowledgement bit. Which I dunno how I should put it. Soon, I am gonna get it all printed. Soon, I am gonna bind everything. Soon, I am gonna hand it in the the honours coordinator. I can’t wait.
Yesterday I had a pleasant surprise. Blindfolds. Candles, and yummy dinner. I am happy to get a break from this stress and have a laid back proper dinner and chat I am glad for everything.
And today, the weather is horrible. The temperature outside is 35 degrees. OMG. Spring just flew past and I didn’t even realise. I didn’t even had the chance to see flowers blooming and new leaves growing. And now it’s all green everywhere :S
I can’t wait for this thesis to be over. I can’t wait for when I can sit at home and just watch tv. I can’t wait to do a tea/dinner party to celebrate the end of the honours year
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October 10, 2009 • 3:28 pm 0
It’s time for the last sprint. I take a deep breathe, I look ahead, I see the finishing line. I see the people cheering me on. I see my friends screaming for me. I see the boyfriend standing at the very end, can’t wait to embrace me when I cross the line and push the ribbon to drop. I hear the yells of encouragements, the overwhelming motivations and the final rally for this last race. It’s just another few more steps. And all of the efforts, sweats and sacrifices will pay off. I must not give up in this last moment. I need to reach the finishing line with glory! RAWR!
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October 8, 2009 • 12:00 am 0
Going on a journey. As the sun sets. As the night sets in. As I sit here facing string of words and sentences. The frustration when the internet connection are going on and off. The silence of being out of mobile coverage. The isolation of being disconnected from the world. The case of cut off conversations. The confusion of incomplete discussions. The misery of unreplied apologies. It is getting too quiet, my mind is cooking up all type of worst case scenarios. Most of all, I hate this feeling of being half way in knowing what’s on your mind or what you’re doing now.
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September 30, 2009 • 11:45 pm 0
The world is almost perfect today. I woke up and felt good and had a healthy breakfast. Then, I got the best and most awesomest news of the month (wink). Then, I got a phone call for a breakfast date the next morning at ikea nothing is better than having a yummy english breakfast to start the day. Then, I managed to watch a show which ended just the right time for me to pack and catch the bus. I didn’t need to wait too long at the bus stop.
My analysis today went pretty smooth. I was quite happy with some of my results. Had a catch up with coursemates while in the lab. After work, Steve picked me up and we dropped by the yacht club to see some sailing boats. Dinner with a close fellow Malaysian friend at Ipoh Hor Fun (yummmmy). Came home, had a good time talking with Steve, did some work, did some job application stuffs, baked a cake… Today is almost perfect. If everyday can be like today…
Oh when we were driving to dinner at around 6-ish, that’s when the sun has sets, but the dark has not settle. The window in between I called it. The city lights lit up the blue skies. And the train went pass. It felt like I was at a theme park. All cheerful and happy.
Today is awesome!
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